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[Dec. 25th, 2011 07:20 am] |
I am just sick of taking other people's feelings and thoughts into consideration before mine.
The worst part is that it is not even appreciated and let's not even talk about being reciprocated.
Always make me wonder why be so nice?
So on this day of Christmas, I wish that I could love myself a little more and take care of my emotions more than anyone else in the world cos I've learned that if you don't, no one else would bother to. (even though they are supposed to)
Merry X'mas folks ha. |
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[Apr. 22nd, 2011 03:27 am] |
Now that I've twitter (ok it has almost been a year), it's really no wonder that I get all so lazy to update in a proper post (not that anything in my oh so mundane life is worthy of a dedicated post)
But but but, it's going to be different, at least for tonight. I am refusing to sleep for god knows why and this should be the last thing that i should do bcos ahem i have like a pimple that is growing underneath my eyelid (according to the doctor whom i went to this afternoon) I totally snorted and LOL when he told me that? I mean like what the hell, who would ever grow a pimple there right? (oh hell yeah me) my right eyelid (the normal one) had a minor swell yet looked majorly deformed when i woke (i typed woked?!?! -.- @ me) up on Tuesday morning and I swear I was almost determined to either go and commit suicide or go under the knife. Me being me, I figured that the latter sounds awesome! Yknw there were times when I wished I could actually feel good about myself so that I don't have to go on and on about plastic surgery? But I just can't bring myself to do it upon knowing there are actually pretty perfect beings out there, living a ass-kicking life. And the cycle goes on.
Whilst typing this post, I am listening to random within temptation songs on youtube and i must say watching vampire dairies has more or less exposed me to more bands that i would never come across cos i am the top 50 mainstream people who is in your life (not bragging k, i magnified the figure, the norm would 10/20) Sidetracking, I still luv All I need by them ;)
So what has been happening in my life, or otherwise, since the last post (not considering all those that wouldn't make sense to anyone)....
#1 I found myself a boring Starhub admin job cos I got rejected for the call center job which commands an awesome pay. Speaking of which, I am more than ecstatic to announce that it would be my last day next thursday woohoo ~~~~
Made some friends throughout the days, but I think everything is pretty screwed up right now all thanks to my warped way of life. I am actually quite happy with being superficial/hi-bye friends? I don't think I would ever wanna go deep with anyone (does not apply to any particular soul) at any point of life. I know there are times that one will need a listening ear or a shoulder to lean on, but no one can vouch for that the person will ALWAYS be there for you. I just have my reservations about "i'll be here for you 24/7" and smth along that cliche stuff.. Simply put, down the road, you will be on your own, whether you like it or not. You have to learn to be your own pillar of strength and support. So why not start now?
#2 I finally got myself a decent camera - Canon s95! ;D Happy or what?!?!?! Been trying to spam photos ever since! Gotta utilise it fully what.... Dslr is still too bulky for my liking despite the great disparity of photos quality between shots of a semi-pro and a pro-pro haha. Will never upload photos here though, that's the point of having a facebook account right (at least for me..) i am only active there at the end of month and that's all.
#3 I got my results for my A's. It's so ironic that it was the A's yet I didn't score any As? HAHA. But I prolly deserved it and my best shot could have only been straight Bs. Not self-deluding but yup :) Felt like a lost sheep aftermath. All the uni apps were tremendously troublesome and tedious. Thanks for all the help rendered by you and you and you, can't never thank you all enough but then i can't really express my feelings (becoming rather void of feelings nowadays, which is apparently a bad thing) To sum it all up, don't despair in face of adversities and press on cos every cloud has a silver lining ^^ (omg cant believe that i said something so hmm encouraging and optimistic cos it's so beyond me?? This is definitely a another new high for me)
#4 All my friends went overseas with friends while i was miserably stuck in singapore, decomposing away. Looking at the all the photos that they upload really makes me wonder if i make the right choice to choose not to go with them or what. Can imagine all the fun they had together, that I'd missed out on. Sigh what to do........
#5 Currently I am contemplating if I should A) go hk alone to live with my dad for a bit after korea so that i can shop like crazy or B) go to bkk before school starts so as to stock on clothes for school or C) come back to earn more money for my Balenciaga. Or maybe I should just settle for something which cost lesser like A.Wang or Prada or Mulberry.The kind of decisions that I lose sleep over hahaha.
Anyway.... Going totally OFF-TRACK with my very initial intentions to blog but I am getting a little sleepy. So good night folks see you again when i feel like typing :) |
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[Apr. 17th, 2011 02:40 pm] |
Maybe that's why I keep insisting that you figure your future out cos I need someone to guide me along. A huge part of me gets all inferior when we talk about the future. It's like everyone knows what they want to do when we all grow up (as in seriously turn into adults) and me? I am still trying my luck here and there.
I really just want to sit back with a cup of Starbucks and watch life go by. Sounds like a good plan for my unemployment. |
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[Feb. 7th, 2011 01:13 am] |
if you really love someone, you will believe that you are very much capable of giving him or her his or her well-deserved happiness :')
but the question is can i.. |
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[Jan. 9th, 2011 10:23 pm] |
There is this sudden urge in me to blog. But I've no idea what I really wanna write about. Should I blog about the random events in my life or should i write about general stuffs? Shall go around and look for some inspirations first. Will get back to this post some other times!
I AM GOING TO THE LIBRARY TOMORROW OR THE DAY AFTER TOMORROW TO BORROW SOME BOOKS!!! |
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[Dec. 28th, 2010 11:56 pm] |
Everytime I set up my mind to not kick up a big fuss anymore, shit will just re-surface.
I don't know how many fucking times must i blatantly tell you that i hate this shit then you would get the message across.
Oh but then again, it wouldn't even matter in the first place cos you wouldn't even fucking care.
YOU CAN JUST GO AHEAD AND DO WHATEVER YOU DEEM FIT.
xoxo NOT. |
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